To say it’s been a rough two weeks is a bit of an understatement.
Got moved to a store that I don’t exactly love but don’t exactly hate. It has it’s good days and bad, more of the latter. But, I’m working on it and reminding myself doing well where I’m at will only improve where I’m going. Every move I make from here on out will only benefit my career with this company.
On the personal side, I hardly ever see Bobby because I now have an hour and a half round trip drive every day on top of my 11 hour work days and good luck getting the same day off as each other. My grandfather is in the hospital and where as he was “getting better and should be out of the hospital in a few months max” to calling family to come down because he’s in critical condition and they don’t know how long he’s going to be around. Finding out that I’m going to possibly lose my grandfather soon is the hardest family loss for me since my brother passed in 2002. I’m broken up about it but trying to keep myself together for my dad’s sake and so people at work are unaware because at this point there isn’t shit I can do but worry and hope that things turn around.
I’m just sad and emotional and unhappy with my job and don’t really know what to do other than make each day as good as I can and keep a brave face when I just want to lay in bed and hide from existence.
I’m sick of being an adult. I want to be a kid again. I want it to be Christmas and I’m visiting my grandparents and sitting in Grandpa’s big blue chair.